Of death I speak
The coming of the black hooded nightmare
Of every child's nightmare
And the losts' only escape
Of death I speak
Bloody cuts looming behind closed eyes
Of past regrets gone in two harsh swipes
The future disappearing too
Of death I speak
The hangman's noose blowing in the breeze
Singing its silent song
As the bright blame of life is snuffed out
Of death I speak
Cold nights of loss
Of burning grief
Of pain and solitude that never leaves
Of death I speak.
This world of lies
All masks and smoke and mirrors
This world of hurt
All good intent and poorly disguised ambition.
This world of fear
All spite and blackmail and hate
This world of love
Broken promises
Twisted words
Candy coated poison for anyone to pick
This world
Built on blood and bones
Treachery and deceit
False gods and wrongful idols
Our world.
Feeling night's chilly kiss against my skin
Watching as the fire dances its wild dance
Free and unfettered
Acidic smell of flames drifting through the air
Faces illuminated by the firelight
Ghouls of another century
Another time claiming them as their own
Ashy remnants of paper spiraling through the air
Mimicking fireflies as they return to the earth
Strands of music float leisurely in the air
Silence flees
But the peace of deep-seated happiness glows from within
Earlier you asked me, "What was wrong?"
Later I can tell you, "Nothing is wrong."
First I needed you.
Then, I found I can stand on my own.
I saw with clouded eyes the world going by
Then my vision cleared and I can see exactly were I went wrong
I thought life was a perfect bubble
Able to protect us and shelter us as it sees fit.
Maybe clear away some of the soap so we can tell what the world is really about
But keep us tucked away for safekeeping.
I knew that life was had of it's ups and downs.
I knew that that it was full of them.
I know that somedays I'm just along for the ride
And others I control it
I know that now that we
Shattered memories dance across my vision
Broken remnants of the past
Whispered reminders of what could have been
Long forgotten taunts that sting your ears
Lost touches leaving burning trails
Icy cold fingers exploring equally frigid skin
Tear drops mark their way
As time you didn't know you wanted slips through your fingers
You told me to be quiet, like one would speak to a child.
You told me 'Bad Girl!' like one would speak to a dog.
You said, 'Forget it!' like one can control another's thoughts.
You say, 'Nevermind!' out of exasperation for I am an annoyance.
I now have a few words of my own for you. I can do whatever the bloody hell I want with my life. You can take all your uncaring, unwanted hypocrisy away. You cannot control me, you cannot tell me what to do, you cannot take away what is rightfully mine. Talk and argue and bluster till you're blue in the face. I don't give a damn.
What is courage?
Plastic lightsabers cracking at the seams
The embers of a fire slowly dying
Memories scattered by the wind
All to fade with the dawn's morning light
Sucessfully murdering what's left of tranquility
Whispered words unheard over joyful shrieks of laughter
And as reality seeps in
You can't help but feel
Flashes of the forest
Glimpses into another's life
Precious seconds that slip away like a fawn's fleeing figure
Precious seconds that turn into immeasurable minutes
As flickers of a life you never knew you wanted
Or cared about
Stolen moments you can't possibly understand
And don't wish to try
If you could, would you go back before you met us?
Before your bright string on fates' loom became dull and lifeless.
Before we lost our best friend.
Before she became our best friend and our lives took a turn for the unknown.
Would you undo all the tears?
All the long lost nights spent down.
All the hopeless feelings of despair.
Every wrong done when you met us.
Will you even read this?
Will you mistake it for a desperate plea for help?
Or will you take it at face value?
What that value is I don't know.
What I do know is that this isn't an apology.
It's not a plea for help.
It doesn't condemn you.
It is simplicity t
Through fields of black and white
Past the morning's dawning sun
Under dark gritty soil
Back beyond heaven
Lies the keys to peace
Above the reach of grasping hands
Over all obstacles
Rising further than faith thought possible
And through it all, you lie waiting for me